As we get into Week 10 I am feeling great, mindset is positive and I am even more determined and focused than ever. This time last round I was feeling nervous and anxious at the thought of the 12 weeks nearly being over. I hadn’t made all the changes I thought I wanted too (mainly physical changes on the scale of course) but it is the mental changes I am more excited about this round. I honestly believe that I am transforming into the best I can be – I am leaner, stronger and healthier than I was in February when I first signed up with Mish.
I have put the ego out with the garbage and taken a long true long look at myself. When I first signed up in February, I thought, I will just need 3 months to “lose the pesky kilos that have crept on”! But now I realise that I needed much more than to just lose the weight!! I needed to change my mind, the way I thought about training and food. I put too much pressure on myself, set my expectations so high that of course I failed, and failed and failed. I wasn’t learning from these failures, I just thought that I could keep trying to prove that I could do whatever I set out to do, but who was I trying to prove this too? Myself? Not really, why did I feel the need to have to prove myself by doing things I was miserable doing (fun runs etc).
I have learnt so much on this journey and it truly has changed my life and how I deal with things everyday. I have always been a positive person and try not to get caught up on the negatives but towards the end of last year, I was not happy, I felt so alone and that isn’t living. I am not perfect and I don’t want to be. The switch is back on and will never be switched off again. Lifestyle choices are for life. I am glad that I had to go down a path that wasn’t a pretty one, because I wouldn’t of ended up where I am now. I have always been “lucky” in life, but I have reminded myself that it is because I can see the choices and can make the right ones for ME.